Left Field

Maybe its true. Being in and out. This middle ground of non committal space of indecisiveness, never choosing, but being in the middle. To be safe in the not complete commitment so that if you're caught in a conundrum, you can be 'politically correct' because you never really committed to whatever it was you were supposedly committed to in the first place.

Scared of being stuck and trapped has defined this trait in me. Some friends would describe it as my 'coyness'. Coy.  http://www.thefreedictionary.com/coy
This seems to be my state too frequently as I don't want to completely commit. I don't want to ever 'completely' be wrong. I don't ever want to be completely be the one to blame.
When I'm caught I will admit to these things. When I'm not caught in definite answers or definite statements, I'm off somewhere in a playful game of coyness.
No coyness intended. I realize how much I avoid...everything.

I stunt my own experiences because some definite concrete thing scares me to a degree, (depending on matters of importance.) I can be blunt, and this isn't always to my advantage, but I think it can fool people to think I'm not as coy or evasive as I really am.
I guess I'm not as evasive when it comes to other people.
I even use phrases like 'I guess' instead of the complete state of being and admittance, 'I am'.
I am, I am not.

I don't always say what I mean.
Sometimes I avoid direct answers.
I should be accused as 'SUBJECT CHANGER'.
Random? No. Just subject changer.

Ok. I'm random.
But I do throw conversations out in left field sometimes.

Where has my perspective gone? I've been challenged on this and ache with it. I ache because in my lack of choosing definitive answers and whatever else, I have been the cause to the very things I wished to avoid. So much for my brilliance.