Rivers

The feelings are odd as something waited for for a short lifetime look as if moments could close themselves to what has been waited for. So long waited for. But there are still questions, there is still doubt, even now, and its hard not to run for a bag to hyperventilate in. There is an unusual stirring, and I cannot even imagine how the other side is breathing.

I'm at a loss for words, and at a loss for emotion because I cannot always seem to feel what I am feeling. When I look into the river of my emotions I am overwhelmed by the current that has built up for years and could overtake and swallow me whole. Some of these feelings might not even be bad feelings, but they are still just as overwhelming as I have held myself at arms length from this ongoing river of emotion....Not feeling all that I should, because back then it was so overwhelming, I don't even want to know what it has become now.