Knowing

Did you ever know what you were doing

I never did know what I was doing

And now I keep on moving

Solving nothing

Without the soothing melodies

Of heart and rhyme in rhythmic melody sublime

Without the doors opening to hear the going.

Oh, I keep going.

And I am losing.

And I am choosing what I should never have chosen

I am broken

I am opened in a way that leaves me

Ready to be sore

Ready to be laid upon the tourniquet

"She's bleeding

Yes, she's breathing too deeply

And her heart is slowing beating

Its repeating, repeating repeat

Re...peat no more"

Tell me the score

I'm losing my mind

I'm losing the time

But what's lost will be mine

I will find

I will find

What I've been looking for

Tell me the score

Are we competing

I won't play games with you

I couldn't if I wanted to

I've never been explained the rules

Don't worry, love, it will be over soon

The agonies inside that burn

Turning over in your bed,

The sugar plum fairies far away

I don't know if I should stay

I don't know if I should

I don't know many things

I know there's water everywhere,

I know there is no drop to drink,

I know I'm thirsting for more than I can handle

Oh, I know

I know, but I don't.

If I knew the spelling, I would spell it out for you,

But since I've never been a good speller,

The phonetics of the matter won't be known.