Put Simply

I'm so funny to me. I would rather say no than yes. The time constraint is my biggest failure. I fall between two sections of my brain, both comprehending time, and not sensing time completely. I lose the essence of whatever a schedule is supposed to be, and struggle and strain to remain on time, in time, and intact.

I bend and break as my mind has little to no time to process my reality through my unconscious subconscious self. I cannot seem to filter and sift through all these words floating in my mind to understand and know what I am feeling.

Processing is lacking as I go about my daily business. Sometimes it is the biggest struggle to just DO that which needs to be DONE.

I need alone time, yet I need time with people, BUT, I need to be making enough money, AND, I need to be getting the grades.

I struggle and I pine to remain in this current time, slipping into other realities of thought.

Too creative for my own good, I am lost in my creativity, and create nothing at the same time, the drive of creation leaving because I cannot sit and take TIME to create.

I am frustrated beyond means, and make myself sick in an attempt to reign my mind to do the things I know I need to do...BUT, after wearing myself out in the reigning process, I lose grip of the reigns and I lose control of everything I am. I cannot find anything to sustain and root me where I am at, and I am at a severe loss for this.

I am losing this battle with myself, and all these time constraints are taking from me.

What do I do, and where do I walk.

What do I say, and how do I begin to just do what needs to be done. To get through it, so I can have time for what I really WANT to be doing?

I'm in a rushed state continually, and I am not handling anything well.

What is my problem.

Me.